ouch

i sprained the shit out of my ankle!!! all the ditches, pot-holes, curb jumping finally caught up to me. NOT. I SPRAINED IT WHILE CHASING CALENDAR GIRL DOWN SOME STAIRS AT A PLAYGOUND. how horrific it must have been for the other kids and parents to watch me lay there in pain for at 10-15 minutes, breaking out into a cold sweat, trying to decide whether or not to pass out or throw up. this picture was taken a week after it happend--it was alot more swollen before. funny how the bruising developsl, then migrates to the toes and such. the good thing is all the time off work i am getting (tapping into that EIB, that i never thought i would see) and the dr gave me vicodin!!!!! 

thank you for laying down

thank you pirtaes, for letting us sweep you, now it is atlanta's turn 

PEYOTE, MY DAD AND MANA POTTERY

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what is this?

it is peyote

my dad is hippie--a real hippie. lived in a VW camper van and traveled the americas when he got a divorce. as far north as alaska and south to central america. his stories were the best--the good and bad things he would stumble upon. he brought me some pottery (a cup) once and told how he spent a month learning the skill and hanging out. did not seem real, just another of his tall tales from the road. i still have the cup--i use it to keep pens, coins, ?, in it. i recently examined it closer , found the name "MANA" and googled it. i was amazed at what i found. HE IS FAMOUS (sort of). i want ya'll to go to his website and 'look' around. Anyway, MY CUP has my name (eric), his name (michael), his symbol (turtle), the date 1979 (i was 11yrs old) on the bottom. Unfortunately he hd a stroke and it really affected his language area, those stories and other follow up stories are lost forever--makes me sad, even more sad that he wasn't around has much as he should have been. are you wondering how peyote plays into this, go to the website.

Johari Window

	Known to Self	Not Known to Self
Known to Others
Not Known to Others

a long time ago, in an interpersonal communications class, we had a lecture about JOHARI'S WINDOW. i was facinated and have always kept that lecture close to my thoughts from time to time. i remember looking for "it" (the info) online a few times, but never found anything-- NOW, i have and thought i would share the links: THIS ONE IS GOOD and WIKIPEDIA

i think it is especially intresting in the blogging community. HERE, we can open up to strangers and tell all (making box 1 huge) or make a bunch of stuff up (making box 3 huge our facade) and if we do not get alot of comments, box 2 will grow, because we really do not know what people really think of us. Box 4 is what is burried deep inside of our subconcious.

In this model, each person is represented by their own window. Let's describe mine:

1. The "open" quadrant represents things that both I know about myself, and that you know about me. For example, I know my name, and so do you, and if you have explored some of my website, you know some of my interests. The knowledge that the window represents, can include not only factual information, but my feelings, motives, behaviors, wants, needs and desires... indeed, any information describing who I am. When I first meet a new person, the size of the opening of this first quadrant is not very large, since there has been little time to exchange information. As the process of getting to know one another continues, the window shades move down or to the right, placing more information into the open window, as described below.

2. The "blind" quadrant represents things that you know about me, but that I am unaware of. So, for example, we could be eating at a restaurant, and I may have unknowingly gotten some food on my face. This information is in my blind quadrant because you can see it, but I cannot. If you now tell me that I have something on my face, then the window shade moves to the right, enlarging the open quadrant's area. Now, I may also have blindspots with respect to many other much more complex things. For example, perhaps in our ongoing conversation, you may notice that eye contact seems to be lacking. You may not say anything, since you may not want to embarrass me, or you may draw your own inferences that perhaps I am being insincere. Then the problem is, how can I get this information out in the open, since it may be affecting the level of trust that is developing between us? How can I learn more about myself? Unfortunately, there is no readily available answer. I may notice a slight hesitation on your part, and perhaps this may lead to a question. But who knows if I will pick this up, or if your answer will be on the mark.

3. The "hidden" quadrant represents things that I know about myself, that you do not know. So for example, I have not told you, nor mentioned anywhere on my website, what one of my favorite ice cream flavors is. This information is in my "hidden" quadrant. As soon as I tell you that I love "Ben and Jerry's Cherry Garcia" flavored ice cream, I am effectively pulling the window shade down, moving the information in my hidden quadrant and enlarging the open quadrant's area. Again, there are vast amounts of information, virtually my whole life's story, that has yet to be revealed to you. As we get to know and trust each other, I will then feel more comfortable disclosing more intimate details about myself. This process is called: "Self-disclosure."

4. The "unknown" quadrant represents things that neither I know about myself, nor you know about me. For example, I may disclose a dream that I had, and as we both attempt to understand its significance, a new awareness may emerge, known to neither of us before the conversation took place. Being placed in new situations often reveal new information not previously known to self or others. For example, I learned of the Johari window at a workshop conducted by a Japanese American psychiatrist in the early 1980's. During this workshop, he created a safe atmosphere of care and trust between the various participants. Usually, I am terrified of speaking in public, but I was surprised to learn that in such an atmosphere, the task need not be so daunting. Prior to this event, I had viewed myself and others had also viewed me as being extremely shy. (The above now reminds me of a funny joke, which I cannot refrain from telling you. It is said that the number one fear that people have is speaking in public. Their number two fear is dying. And the number three fear that people have, is dying while speaking in public.) Thus, a novel situation can trigger new awareness and personal growth. The process of moving previously unknown information into the open quadrant, thus enlarging its area, has been likened to Maslow's concept of self-actualization. The process can also be viewed as a game, where the open quadrant is synonymous with the win-win situation.

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